so to be honest, I'm not sure how I feel about the term "lovesick" in reference to anyone other than the Lord. not saying I don't think its possible... I guess I'm just kind of unwilling right now to be super vulnerable. because I really think I do know what it means... and I guess thats scary.
The Lord has been so good to me. Really just bringing wisdom to me... not that I know it all, I don't, thats the thing... but He's been maturing me alot. its a hard process.
"All the other lovers fade away"
He's watching over me right now, being super gentle with me I feel like... because He hurts like I hurt. He knows what I'm going through, and He knows right now I just need Him. and He's here. always.
I'm really going through such a weird season, kind of learning to trust God again. because honestly, I kind of felt like He dragged me under a bus, when I know He didn't! my heart knows His intentions for me are always good, and I know there are lessons I need to learn from this... and I'm in the process of learning. its just that I felt so prepared... so ready... so willing to listen to His words... and that He let me put myself in this situation. because I sought Him I sought Him I sought Him! it should be easy since I wanted His will, right?
I don't know.
so needless to say, I'm remembering who He is right now. really. and that His intentions for me are pure and lovely. and that I have no idea whats really going on right now because only He sees the big picture.
Jesus, I want to cling to you. like a daughter to her father. like a wife to her loving husband.
