other news, I'm back in Dallas. and it feels so good. I ran a ton of errands today... and spent lots of money that needed to be spent on things I need. such as food. and prescriptions. and I'm going to go running. and hang out with Tasia later. and her British friend. what a good day :) thank the Lord! He is good!
my apartment is really hot right now, but the air conditioning isn't working right now. its December. I shouldn't need to use the air conditioning. I'm rambling.
I realized the past few days that I have alot of bitterness stored up in me. and even though I might have reason to be angry with some people, it doesn't give me a right to be. it doesn't give me a right to imagine beating them up. haha. but really. even though I might have been wronged in the past I just have to get over it, and love them anyways. like, really love them. sometimes its so much easier to love people you don't even know rather than the people you do know. its so sad. well, its hard for me anyways. God doesn't want me to have all this stored up anger, thats not like Him. and if I'm striving to be made into His image, then being bitter isn't really an option. He's helping me with that right now, because I can't deeply forgive without His help. I have realized I'm not capable of doing ANYTHING without His help. He's my world.
I guess thats all for now. I'm glad to be back :)
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